2 a.m. and Awake (Grrrr)

It is suppose to be my last night of sleep without having to get up with a newborn and here I am blogging at 2 a.m. I just can't sleep. The anticipation of the day is driving me crazy.

Monday night we took the boys to Jakers for dinner. After we had finished eating and were waiting for our check, Cannon decided to climb on the bench behind Colton and started pulling on his neck/back. In no time they had both completely flipped out of the bench onto the floor and isle of the restaurant. They are both crying/screaming loudly. Colton said he banged his head pretty badly and Cannon said his bum hurt. Greg and I were completely horrified and embarrassed. All we could do was look at each other and laugh and say, "What are we going to do when there are 3 of them?"

Yesterday seemed like I was in the twilight zone. It all felt very strange thinking this is the last time I will do this with 2 kids or alone because Cannon was in preschool yesterday and I had 2 1/2 hours completely to myself.

-Woke up and watched T.V. for a while

-Took a nice long bath

-Cannon kissed my belly and said this was the last time he would kiss the baby in my belly. (Very Sweet) He was also very inquisitive yesterday about the baby. He wasn't quite sure if the baby was for sure still a boy. I had to answer many very serious 4 year old questions.

-Went to lunch. I was very touchy with Cannon. I kept rubbing his back and snuggling with him thinking, You won't be my baby tomorrow.

-Did some shopping without any children. Target (I love this store)

-Did laundry

-Was very picky about what I would eat for dinner because I couldn't take any heart burn medicine last night. Greg ended up picking up Geraldine's sandwich and soup. Very elaborate wouldn't you say!

-Walked around the house aimlessly wondering what to do.

-Watched Dancing with the Stars Result Show and Biggest Loser

-Finally got around to taking a shower thinking I don't want to have to get up any earlier than necessary. But, since I am awake now, I have plenty of time to shower before I have to be to the hospital at 5 a.m.

-Lastly I finally did pack for the hospital.

-Just typing this out, makes me exhausted. How am I going to feel with a newborn.

-Then it was a pure joke trying to get the kids in bed, or should I say Grandma trying to put the kids to bed. I think we all have some butterflies we are dealing with.

-Cannon kept coming up giving me kisses good night. I think he might feel threatened a little. Colton just pretends nothing is happening. I guess he is a little like his father. What you don't acknowledge, doesn't happen (Right?)

Well, at least this sleepless night allowed me to journal my last couple days before the baby came. I am nervous for the c-section that is going to happen in 4 1/2 hours. I will be glad when I am in recovery, knowing we are done with that. Then I can look forward to a sore stomach and breat feeding for the next three days in the hospital. But, I am truly excited to see the baby and hold him. I am looking forward to that.

So everybody pray for me. I am feeling a little overwhelmed with this new change that will be happening in my life. I don't even think I felt this unsure when I was having Cannon. I had a 2 year old and a baby. Why didn't I feel this nervous then. I guess because I was already busy and crazy taking care of a two year old. I didn't quite have time to think about it too much.